A little life...

This week has been kind of tough...well not kind of...
Last Friday a friend of my mums came around and told us that last Wednesday night a couple from our church lost their baby girl. She was 7 months old. This couple are not our best friends but people that we connected with. Their eldest is Tiffs age and their youngest Krystal's. They were a family I admired and respected. I have had great talks with the mum over the years. I remember once holding little Josh when he was 8 months old and she came and put her hand on my shoulder and said "babies become you..." My mum has always made the time to spend and listen and share with her.
This Wednesday was the funeral. It was such a beautiful tribute to her little life. The family were so unified and strong. They have 4 boys between 9 and 2. They showed us such grace and faith in their time of trial. They were incredible. It brings me back to all those questions I asked when Kyle died and still God brings me back to the same answer...Why God?...You cant understand my child, because you are not God but I am, and I know what I am doing and why, I see more than you.You know that I love her more than you and her parents...I love her more than anyone can fathom. I am keeping her safe, I am cradling her in my arms, I am loving her...I'm sorry that your heart hurts but I will be there to comfort you too.

No one but God can understand why he needed her in heaven with him so soon. I just pray that at this time we can all be comforted by is love and by the family he has placed around us!!

5 years ago...

The 22nd of November is a day that will always be special to me. It is the day God decide to bring a beautiful boy into the world, a boy who had already defied the odds to survive!! A boy God gave me the honour of naming...I named him "saved by god". Today is the first time in 5 years I have not been able to hear how he is going or see his smiling face in a photo... I pray for him and his fabulous family!! Happy birthday my sweet boy!! I thank God for you and all you bring to the world!! I love you!!